The Vibration of Love

I was fumbling through photos on my lap top, trying to figure out how to open them. My computer update rearranged all of my pics into a new format to make it easier to navigate. Can you spell AGGRAVATION? Finally, I accidentally clicked on something that opened a slew of pictures. Mindlessly scrolling through random images, I came across one that made me stop and linger. The captured image pulled my heart strings triggering a memory that was bittersweet. It was a photo of me and my son, tilting our heads, one against the other, in a serene moment of what looked like peaceful content. No doubt it was. It was 2016, the year after of placing him in Adult Services, a year that rocked our world. 2015 brought the most challenging struggle of my life fighting for his. On a wing and prayer, we miraculously landed on our feet; the universe provided. This image reflected the moment that followed, a sense of calm. We could exhale knowing we had reached the light at the end of the tunnel, knowing he was finally safe and supported. It was a moment not of victory, but of relief, now filled with hope of a better tomorrow. Even now, a decade later, with just a glance my heart is full.

Love is a feeling, it’s not tangible. It’s a vibrational knowing and when you are in its presence, it just is. How perfect a gift of love from my son who has profound autism. No inability to speak or understand conversation kept him from sharing this moment with me; one without words, one without boundaries, enveloped in the vibrations of gratitude and love.